Few hours towards 2013! Let's use this moment to look back at my 2012 memories.. =D But I don't think I can remember all of it hahhaha..
Starting form January..
The beginning of 2012, the start of the sixth semester, the busy semester..
We had CFC at that time, it was one of the Senate event. We renovated a room in a school and made it into a library. It was fun!
February..
Can't remember anything, except for the special mading I made, the Chocolate box!
March...
Discovery III!!! Another great event from Senate.. That was unforgettable moment.. We worked together day and nights ( yes, we even worked until dawn..). Working together like that make me realize how teamwork is very important, how we need each other.. =D Beside the lack of sleep, all the tiredness, all the stress I felt, the lost of the voice; I was really happy because I could do what I like... can't wait to see the next Discovery..
April..
Started working for FSM Appreciation Night..
May..
The worst and scariest exam I had.. It was really scary that until now I can't forget how worry and scare I was at that time.. Numerical Partial Differential Equation is the name of the subject.. I didn't do well for that subject and had a lot mistake during the class.. >.< We had a oral test for the final exam, but it was like a "court".. hahahaha..
I earned my first money from designing something! wkwkwkw...
June...
Holiday holiday.. yay! Didn't do anything special on my holiday. I spent a lot of time watching movies, going out, and also helping my mom to work.. hehehhe..
August..
Realizing that I had wasted too much time useless, then I started to think of doing something, I mean making something.. So, my sister and I learned a little bit how to sew, and we made some detachable collars.. Although our business didn't go really well, but we had so much fun while designing and making it.. ^^
And, at the end of August, a very first time I lead a comittee.. we had FSM Appreciation Night!!! Despite all unprepared-ness, I may say that it was a success for a first event.. FSM Appreciation Night was the last event of Senate in that period, and after that I officially stopped being a Senator.. I can't say how I really love working as Senator with others, learned a lot from them..
September..
UPH Awards was being hold.. A big disappointment I got after attended it.. They had made a big mistake to my Senate.. ~.<
My birthday! I can't tell anything special about it, because there was none.. oh, except for the gifts! I got a necklace at the day, and got a few other things at the next time.. So let me tell you what I got, a set of spidols, a canvas, paint tubes, brushes, palettes, a cute ice cream glass, a pair of short, some cash lol.. I didn't get many present, but I love it all.. All the paint and coloring tools reminded me of my childhood when I used to practice drawing a lot for the competitions I had.. Thanks all for bring up the spirit to draw again! \(^^)/
October..
huummm.. what has happened in October..? hehehehe... except of my friend's birthday, I can't remember anything.. hehehehe...
November..
was a very Busy month.. Starting to do a project with some friends, a project that is not related to academic purpose.. We actually wanted to make a video for Christmas Day, but we have never done it until now wkwkwkw due to our busy schedules =p... We changed the video with a presentation, or you may say it was a story telling..
Thesis proposal is on progress while at the same time, I was also working in both of my academic projects..
December..
TOEFL iBT test! Exams! Project deadlines! too many things to dooo.. >_< But finally I could finish it one by one..
Exams had done, the holiday began.. I was having so much great time with my friend... =p I didn't get enough chance to meet him before, so we used this time well to meet each other..
And I'm still working on my proposal for my thesis with a new topic.. I really wish to finish it soon...
That was some of my memories in 2012.. Now, let's face 2013.. Happy New Year !!!!!
About Me
- Huank Ai
- ..just call me Ellen.. Everyone knows me as a shy-quiet-ordinary girl... but i am not that shy actually.. I just don't really like to talk ^^
It has been a long time since my last post.. I thought of stop due to the very busy days..But yeah now it's a holiday, and I'm thinking of writing something... =D
I got a new hobby... It's not a hobby like reading, drawing, cooking or something like that, even I don't know whether you would call it a hobby.. hahahha.. So, currently I really love to try some DIY mask using natural ingredients that you can find it at home, may be =p So, here's a review of these masks, I hope it will help you if you need some information about it. Before, I wanna tell you that I'm not a pro, this review is based on my own experience.. Let's start!!!
REVIEW:
~ Banana peel
I heard that banana contains potassium that could help you to heal your acne and removing your warts. I used to have so many warts in my face (heredity factor I guess >.<), but most of them have been removed by a laser treatment, but I got a new ones. T___T And thinking of laser treatment and the pain I would feel, I would not consider it..
Claim:
- heal acne
- remove warts
- reduce wrinkle
- reduce the acne scar
How to do:
1. Get a banana peel. Then to make it easier, just cut it into pieces.2. Rub it to you face, especially on the spot that you wanna heal.
3. Rub rub rub until the color change to brown.
4. Just throw the already-used-peel, but DON'T wash your face.
5. Wait until several minutes before you wash it.
6. Anyway for acne and warts, I would like to cut it into a small piece, then put it on my acne/wart and cover it with a bandage. Leave it like that for a night until you wake up, wash it!
My Review:
+ After about 9 days of treatment, I feel my face a little bit tighter, but it was not significant.+ For warts, yes it can remove you warts! My small warts has been gone. But the bigger one is still there until now, I haven't continued the treatment yet. But actually it has been so much smaller now. =)
But It took so long, so many days for removing it. ~.~
- it didn't work for some acne, like for a big zit.. The banana peel didn't reduce the swell, but give the reverse effect.
- For the scars, I didn't see any difference. hahaha.. or maybe 9 days is too short? dunno..
~ Cucumber
Cucumber is always a good treatment for a dry skin. My skin was completely dry, that's why cucumber treatment was the best! Anyway, cucumber is good for reducing the dark circle, but I haven't tried this ehehehehh..
Claim:
It can hydrate your skin.., because cucumber and the skin share the same level of hydrogen. It will help in soothing and softening the skin.How to do:
1. Get a cucumber and cut it into pieces.. Make sure you cut it into a very thin layer. The thicker one tends to fall easier after you apply it to your face.2. For me, I would put it in a bowl.
3. Lay down.. I would like to put the bowl in my stomach so I can reach it easier.
4. Then just put the cucumber slice one by one all over your face.
5. If you find it difficult to do this alone, just ask someone to put it to your face. =p
6. Wait for 15-20 minutes.. remove it!
My Review:
+ So great! I could feel my skin hydrated a lot.+ Felt the cooling effect while the cucumber was covering my face. because of it, you would feel more relax.
- Soothing? yes.. smoothing? not really, but a little bit yes!
~ Oatmeal
This is my current skincare routine: use oatmeal as my natural cleanser.. and i love it so much!
Why oatmeal is good for your skin? because it's 100% natural..? Honestly, i've done some research on it but i forget now. hehehehe..
Claim:
- Help in smoothing your skin- Reduce the inflammation and redness of acnes
- Reduce the appearance of dark spot
- Hydrate your skin
- Exfoliate your skin from the dead skin cell.
How to do:
3. Pour some water, it will be better with the lukewarm water. For me, i will grasp my hand with the oatmeal inside while pouring the water, so the oatmeal won't be fall down.. =D
4. It will give you a milky fluid (fluid? liquid? i dunno how to mention it), I will smear it to all over my face.
5. Then put the oatmeal all over your face.
6. Exfoliate it in circular motion, just like what you do when you cleanse your face.
7. Wash it!
Do it regularly, like everyday.. I love to do it at night. So that I would see a radiant and glowing skin when i wake up! ^^
2. Pour water on it, not to much or it will be difficult to apply. Just make it damp.
3. I will use my brush to smear it to my face. You can use your finger, but I think it will be more messy.
4. Wait until 15-20 minutes. Then wash it...
My Review:
+ two thumbs up! love this so much.. Oatmeal really help me in smoothing my skin especially when you use it as a mask. So smooth that you would like to touch it.. =p+ for the acne, huumm.. it does its job on healing my whiteheads. But for nodules, oftenly it will give no help. I still have some nodules in my forehead T___T haven't know the solution for this, do you have any advice? tell me if you have any.. =D
back to topic, i had a very big cyst acne, with a diameter more than 5mm. can you imagine it? After 3 weeks use the oatmeal cleanser, it's gone. yay!
for blackheads, i'm not really sure, but yes it don't have many blackheads like before now.
+ For scars.. it help my scar to fade.. but took a very long time, depend of how bad you scar is. Normally it take about 6 months for a skin to completely heal itself, so i think this is good to use oatmeal to make the process faster.
+ oatmeal also hydrate and moisturize your skin. i think this is the reason why you would feel your skin smoother and silkier and more glowing.
+ I doubt of it, but I think oatmeal could make you face tighter tooo... hahaha.. not really sure it is the effect of oatmeal or my new moisturizer.. =p let me know if you know something..
- It sometimes get messy when applying it. I suggest you to not use so many oatmeal for a mask. Once, I did it with a huge amount of oatmeal, until the oatmeal completely covered my face with no miss area. And it was really really difficult and messy when i'm trying to clean it from my face because it was so sticky.
- it doesn't prevent a new breakout. I still got more new breakouts, with considering the fact that I've been so stressful these weeks. As you may know, stress contributes to the cause of new breakouts. Lately, beside the stress effect, my sleeping habit and my diet habit is not in balance. Got a very lack of sleep and "bad" diet (many foods which containing lots of sugar). It has been like this every time I have an exam hehehehhe...
I really recommend this.. After a month using it, i feel my skin is improved. It's not perfect yet, but at least i see an improvement. I still have some worst scar now, thanks to my naughty hand >_< ... Wish that oatmeal could rescue my skin.. hahahaha.. Oh yeah, sometimes I use it to my body! ;)
~ Honey
Honey has anti microbial properties that could help to fight the bacterial in acne inflammation.
It is also contains anti oxidant which is useful for achieving a younger look skin. That's why it is so good for your skin. As what I know, Manuka Honey is the best, but not yet prove it by myself =p
Claim:
- heal acne- moisturize your skin
- reduce the acne scar
How to do:
1. Take your brush and just spread the honey all over your face. Avoid eye area...2. Or, in my experience for healing acne, it's better to leave it overnight. Well, I covered it with a bandage.. =D
3. Anyway, sometimes i used it with cinnamon, since cinnamon is also good for healing acne. But I can't find a big differences between using the additional cinnamon with not using any. hehhehehe...
My Review:
+ It does heal some acne. But, I actually like the oatmeal better. I have to spread honey to my face for a long time and you know sometimes it's disturb your activities. But, oatmeal, you just need 1-2 minute everyday.. Oatmeal give a better effect too..+ Remove scar? I think yes. For this one, I think honey does a better job than the oatmeal.
+ Honey gives a glowing effect!
- It's sticky, I'm too lazy to apply it to my skin.. ahahhaahhaa..
~ Sugar
Actually I use sugar as an 'exfoliator'. For my face and also for my lip. hehehhehe... You can use white sugar or the brown one.
Claim:
Sugar is a natural exfoliator. It removes the dead skin cell while it also moisturize your skin.How to do:
1. Grab some amount of sugar, and pour some water on it.2. Stir and stir until the granules dissolve.
3. Apply it to your face just like the honey mask.
4. I will wait for a few minute while sometimes giving a massage to my skin before I wash it. =D
5. Do this twice a week.
My Review:
+ Not many differences result with the honey mask. I felt my skin a little bit hydrated.+ the exfoliator job? hahaha.. how could i know it? I just feel great, and maybe more clean?
- the bad effect, i love sugar and sweet so much that I was tempted to lick it from my lip whenever I apply it to my lip.. LOL...
+ your lip need to be exfoliated, so apply it to your lip would be a good idea. If I didn't get it wrong, it smoothen my lip a bit. (I don't use it regularly).
- If you don't wash you face properly, you would feel your face very sticky.
~ White egg
In fact, you can use both the white egg or the yolk one. But I don't remember the differences. hahahahah...
Claim:
Tighten your skin, reduce wrinkles. Humm it's should be more than just tighten the skin, but don't remember it..How to do:
Apply it to your face just like the sugar or honey mask. Wait a few minute, and wash it.My Review:
+ tighten your skin.I don't have many review of it, because I did this only once. Anyway, an egg could be use for more than once application.
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So, that was my review on some masks... Is this helpful? hahahaha... Anyway, I still got some trouble with nodules and cystic acne.. If anyone know the solution, would you like to tell me please? >_< wkwkkwwk... thankies all! :)
INFINITY is the first Senate event. Just like the name, "Inauguration for Increasing Unity", the main purpose of Infinity is increasing the relationship among the FSMers. I was really anticipated this event before, i was sure the games would be very interesting...
But well nothing's perfect..
All of the participants were divided into 8 groups, with 6-7 members each. From the beginning i was not sure about my own group. I was in Red Team, with Ella as the leader. I am not very close with all of the members, The most closest person is Ella, next is Momo, and how about the other?? not at all.... well, i guessed i would have a little difficult moment to communicate with them. And yes it was.
And the day started...
Again, i didn't enjoy the way to Taman Bunga Nusantara. Something happened, that actually i was really mad for a moment. But i knew i had to control my emotion...
We arrived in Taman Bunga Nusantara... Whoa, there are so much flowers there... The flowers made a great atmosphere! I love flowers!
Every team had a mission there. We were given 10 photos, actually 11 with one as a bonus. What we have to do here is find the exact thing like the ones in the photos, and take a picture of them. We have a time limit for this game, i forgot how much time we had... hehehe... After some minutes plus some few photos, we still have about 5 pictures to go. We went around the park, and found nothing.. I didn't know whether it was only myself worrying about the time? Most of the members still walked, not run? But luckily, we got all the photos right before the time was over.
Then, we were ready for the next mission, the labyrinth! The labyrinth made my spirit grew up... kyaaa... When i was a child i kept dreaming of going in a huge labyrinth.. And the dream comes true.. LOL...
And the most interesting part is, we have to get the rival team's label to get points, beside collecting the flag and looking for the infinity ball inside the labyrinth. It mean that we would have to chase each other.. I was really excited! hahaha... It had been a long time, I didn't run nor chase someone.. But again, only a few of the participants looks very enthusiastic, the other didn't show any interest to this game, including my team members. They successfully tear my spirit away. I felt like i enjoyed this game by myself, I was having fun alone T.T. I had a moment when i was in labyrinth and was trying to find the right way. The silent atmosphere was destroyed by some voices that coming near... We had to keep our label safe, didn't we? Then i did a low-voice-of-scream and run. But my team members kept walking as usual.. Am i too childish?? Was i too influenced with korean variety show? In my mind, i was still thinking about chased and being chased. When we were in the center of the labyrinth, it was the time to look for the infinity ball which was hide somewhere... . Recently, I am a person that easily affected by my own mood. And the condition that time had turn down my mood. If i could draw the graphic of my mood that day, it would be very fluctuative. The other members didn't really search the ball, they thought of giving up. And that's why i was not interested in finding the ball again... We decided to give up and went out from that labyrinth. I was quite sad outside.. We wasted our time for nothing... Yeah it was a game, i don't care about winning, but what made me sad is the fact that i didn't really really "play"....
I love playing such this kind of game..
But the game was still fun.. Although it was not as fun as in my imagination. Hahaha....
I was kinda sleepy now.. Let me continue this later...
*to be continued :p
The Japanese...
The next card is also my favorite.. Inspired by an-unique-ruler-from-my-childhood.. I don't know what do we call that ruler.. I think you might know the ruler. We can draw such graph with that ruler..
Well, i can't post all of the cards, I don't have any photo of the others....
I spent a week to make all the 17s.
No planning before, no much time.. T.T
I am not sure whether they are good enough.
But for sure, I made all of those with all my heart.
How do you think of all those cards above??? Hope you like it too... ^^
Dancing will always be a part of my life! Whenever I listen to a nice song, seems like my whole body wanna move... But sometimes, I can't express it with anyone around. T.T ...
Today, I have a very very unpleasant day. Early in the morning, I have already woken up at 6 AM and I felt very tired and sleepy. I just wanted to lie for a minute in my bed before I really got up. But then, I fallen asleep again! ...
Almost 2 hours later, I woke up again and was very very surprised. It has been almost 8 o'clock. I was still a little bit dizzy, and I remember something, "I would have a test today at 8.10 AM" ... OH NO! I took a bath in a hurry. And get ready in few minutes then hurry to campus... My friend called me and text me, he said that all the students had been come, left only me... Whoaaa.... I ran from the parking park to the third level of Building B, room 339, the class where the test would be hold. Luckily I wasn't late, the test had not been started yet. But unluckily, I didn't have time to review the materials.
And, I didn't eat this morning, and I felt very hungry and dizzy. I usually eat breakfast every day, at least I need to eat something before doing any activities.
Forgot to tell you, "Data communication and Computer Networking" was the subject for the test.
Test started....
First question.. When I read it, I got really confused. "What is this?" When I look at the "hexa" word, I begin to worry. "How can I convert this hexa number to the binary number?" Even I forgot how to convert the hexa to decimal base. Learning from my past exam, I had to move on, or I would spent time useless thinking only about this. I skip the first one, and read the secong one. Again, I didn't know how to find the rate in signal per bit if I knew the bit and the data transmission speed in baud (signal per bit)... I didn't even know the relation of the two, signal and bit...? I mean relation in the formula... OK, skip this too.
Then I chose to read the last question, number five. After reading for a while, I got puzzled. "Argh, just go back to the previous question!" This time I read the third number. Because of the 3 confusing question, I lost my hope, and half of my mind was like saying "Can't, can't, You can't do this!" so that I couldn't concentrate thinking about the answer. I was going to leave the third number and continue to the fourth. But when I looked at the word "hexa", seem like impossible to do it now, I turned back to the third. And the idea of the solution just came up! Finally, i can answer a question. Happy? not yet, 4 question more to go. And honestly I wasn't one hundred percent sure about my answer of the third number.
I tried to remember the hexa-decimal conversion.. hexa, hexa, hexa.. okay then, I did the conversion with my own way, i thought it was right at the first time. I realized that it was wrong when i had half finished computing the result. I knew it was wrong, but what is the right one? Is hexa egual to six? or twelve? or...? skip this...!
Jumped to the fourth question, where hexa was mentioned again. This time I considered hexa as twelve. Done with the fourth, I did the last one. I didn't know whether my answer was right or not, i just wanted to finish this. I had only 10 / 15 minutes more. Number two left. Because of the limited time, I read only some part of the question, and skip the important "key" to solve it. I guessed the wrong answer.
A few minutes left to rethink the unsolved hexa-decimal conversion. The first and the fourth question should be easy if I knew how to convert this hexa based number to binary. how???
About a minute before the time out, i found the confusing conversion in my calculator... Graaa.... I should have known this from the beginning! uh uuuhhh....
Time's up!
Aaarrggghhhh.....
Everything was a mistake... T.T
A few hours ago I just knew my result of the final exams, the very unpredictable result. And this is the worst result for this 2 years; and hope it is the worst, there would be no worse than this one
>.<
For this semester, I have taken 7 subjects with total of 23 credits. Four subjects of Mathematics, which are Calculus Lanjut II, Real Analysis, Mathematical Methods, Mathematical Statistics. And the last three are Java Programming, Data Structure, and Database System; for the Informatics Technology concentration.
From this seven, I got only one 'A' from the IT subject, Java Prog; two 'A-' for Data Structure and Database System. And I failed in one subject, Mathematical Methods. The other results was not better either. The highest score for the Math subjects is 'B'. How about the others? Guess it...
Since the first semester, I had not ever failed. And I had never gotten 'B' or less, 'B+' used to be the lowest score, and I hoped it is. But now.... my hope disappeared. And I can do nothing now to fix it...
...the beginning
Since the first time I went to this university, I got 50% scholarship. But this percentage could be changed to 100% if I got IP greater than 3.75. Then I thought I will run after this scholarship, which we called it as Platinum Scholarship. Then when I would see the result, I was a little worried that I couldn't get the standard IP (3.75). Okay, but now everything has changed. My main goal is not to get the platinum scholarship anymore, but to maintain my 50% scholarship. Several months ago I was still trying to get more than 3.75, now I'm struggling to achieve more than 3.00.
Until 2 years ago, I was still one of the best in my class. or At least I didn't get any 'C' in my report card... But at the moment, I think I might be the lowest in my class. Hmmm no.. I think I am one of the lowest since the first year... I started to think negatively, that I am not right to be here, I have no potential here, I am not smart enough, then was my "psikotest" really true? ... Day by day I began to lose my confidence, my faith, my hope..
I studied and studied. I did some exercise. I have prayed to Him, I asked for His help. I did everything. I was pretty sure I will get better score than the last one. But what do I get??? What else should I do? Seems like I've done my best.... but...
I have to admit that a part of my heart had given up. The last exams' result had been pulling me down. I had fallen to my own hopelessness. I have tried to stand up, but I don't know, am I completely arise?
Now I realized, all I've been thinking this time is about me and myself. I fell down in the same hole again and again, yeah it's not the first time. Although someone has ever reminded me that I am no one without Him. Yeah, I have no confidence, I am not brave enough, and I am not capable enough, that I really need Him.. I can't do all these things alone.
<Maybe you should remind me again next time>
...the final exams
A week ago was the dead week for me, because I was having the Final Exams. I couldn't even choose which subjects was the scariest one. I was afraid of all the test.
First day >>> Real Analysis, among six, I can't answer 2 questions completely. But I thought I would get at least more than half of the full score. Then Java Programming. I got the best score for this subject on mid exams. But the last test was very very very difficult, as my friend told me. I can't predict my result, but I felt it would be bad because I hadn't finish answer all the questions.
Second day >>> no test at all this whole day. I stayed at home and studied for the next day. I woke up late that day, and I couldn't concentrate studying that morning. I just found my spirit back at the night.. very late...! Two days for studying and I still had to sleep very late, I slept at 3 o'clock and woke up 3 hours later and not finished yet actually.
Third day >>> Two dreadful test, Mathematical Methods (Metmat) and Database System (SBD). Metmat is the worst I thought. Only one question that I was sure to answer it. The other 3? I didn't really know how to do it. Then for a few hours, I forgot everything about Metmat and continue my study of SBD which had not done yet. When I studied together with my friends, there was something I forgot to ask them, although I felt it was important and I really needed to ask. Then yeah, that one thing is written in my SBD question sheet. whoa, I didn't know what is it, but I couldn't let it blank, so I just wrote anything I know in my answer sheet.
Fourth day >>> Calculus test greeted me in the morning. I had a lack of exercise for this subject. When I did the test, my head was completely blank, I couldn't even think right. Even I misunderstood the first question, which I should find the area, but I did look for the volume. The book wasn't not helping me too much either. The next test is Data Structure. Again, I didn't finish studying this subject. Luckily it held in the afternoon at 1.40. Then I had about 3 hours to study. With a little worried, I finished studying in a rush. But in the middle of studying, I got a bad news, the Metmat result! I almost couldn't study at all because of it. But I kept telling myself to focus on Data Structure first.
Fifth day >>> The last day for the last test, Mathematical Statistics (Statmat). If Java was the best score for mid, in the other hand Statmat was the worst one. I mostly afraid with this subject, I hate statistics from the first semester. I did some exercises in the book, but I couldn't done most of them which making me more afraid. Then how 'bout the test? Well, I could smile brightly after this test, it was not as hard as I thought.
...the result
The examinations was over, but my heart kept worrying. I checked SLIM all the time. I made my own prediction, I counted my IP with that prediction. Then, I found out a big possibility of losing my scholarship. Oh No, that could not happen!!! I need an miracle... All support from my friends pushed me to keep my faith. Wait and wait.. One by one the result came out. Until, finally today, I have known all my exams result...
Three subjects result is the same with my own prediction, one is better, and 2 worse. Between the two, one is very unpredictable... But Thanks God, my scholarship is still save..!!! It's only God's grace.. He does not leave me alone, struggle by myself.
Maybe it's the worst for me, but in God it's the best...
I asked Him to give me the best, the best one defined in Him.....
Let it be my stepping stone to improve all..
It is not the end of everything! I still have chance to start over again...
*** I wanted to write a post about my exams since last week, but I thought it would be better if I just wait for the result, that I can tell you a good news.. because I believe He has opened my way to UPH, then He would help me until the end, then He would give me solutions for all my problems here, and it is the solution... ***
^^