The Secret Of Me

Two weeks from now, I'll meet the final examinations... Huaaaa..... Afraid? yes..! I'll prepare it well right now.. hehehe... And I'm sure Jesus will help me..
And right after the exams week, the start of my long holiday (should be a very loooonnggg holiday)... But I've decided to take the SP ( semester pendek or short semester ). And I am very very very happy because Jesus allowed me to take SP this time. Why did I say "Jesus is allow me" ?
Last year I didn't take the SP. And this year, I might not take it again.. Why? All of because of money! Yeah... I can tell you the detail of my problem, sorry.. hehe...
But this year, He help me.. He give me everything I need, include the money for SP... Thanks God! Love Him so much... He always give us the best on the right time! Even though, He didn't give me last year..
But, I get many positive things for the "delayed SP last year". Since the first semester, I had not taken a class by myself. I had all my Math classmate with me in all of my classes... And I think it makes me a little bit spoiled.. Yeah, I waited for them arrange the schedule, and just follow what they have chosen.. That's what I had done for this long time... hahaha....
And because I didn't take SP, I have to take the class, which they have taken in SP, in my regular semester, ALONE....! I have to arrange all by myself... Ask the schedule and classroom, I did it myself (the first time @ UPH) wkwkwkwk..... And I have to find "friend" in my class... I can be alone for the whole time in class, of course, even I'm shy and quiet, I need to talk... :D And the important one is, I have to find the right group for doing the projects... Because of the "aloneness", I get more friends... I learn to make a new relationship with others.. I learn to communicate with them... I learn to work together with them... I have learned many things!!!
So, in every condition that happened in your life, you can always find the good-positive things... Maybe you didn't realize it, but I think everything that has happened was the best for you from HIM... ^^

SP... SP... SP... I'm coming now... hahaha... Go away the "laziness"...! I need to take this SP... bye 3 months of holiday... ( Whereas I have plan so many things to do in my holiday ... T.T ) I won't throw away this rare chance... ^^ ....

wow... it's been a long time since i wrote my last post.... haha...
i've been very very busy, studying and doing some exercise.. (honestly, i spend many time too to "having fun" lol)

Did I told you what major do I take in university? ... I take Mathematics and also Informatics Tech. (the double degree program). I like both of them, Math and Computers.
I have ever dreamed to be a hacker... haha.... Even my dad had bought me some books about hacking, which I read only some pages in only one book.. hehehe.... he gave me about 7 books (as i remember)...
So, when I knew that UPH has the double degree program between Math and Computers, i was very excited. I can study both of them together.... yeah, i didn't think about difficulties i'll face.. I just loved them... ^^ And now I'm in the 4th semester (second year), and the material get harder and harder. huaaa.... >.<

This semester I take 3 class of the IT, which are data structure, database system, and java programming... All of them are related to "coding" ... yeah, coding is the life of computer...
I love "coding", but sometimes I am not... haha... when i have to make the complex sourcecode, I am easily being stressfull. but I am really enjoy "coding" when I can think about the right code... Even i can' stop "coding" sometimes (i mean until the code is finish)... and i'll be so happy when i run my own program, it's so satisfying... haha...
but i think, all human will feel it tooo.... not just me, and not just when we do the "coding" activities...

but I'll be so stressful when I stuck with the sucks sourcecode.... wkwk...
like now.. i don't know how to continue my code... T.T
hope i get some idea tomorrow... ^^
just try again tomorrow...
whatever the difficulty of it, but i still like "coding" .... :)



what i wanna say here is "Don't be easily give up to everything you do, just because the difficulties on it!"
If you are sure with the things you do, even if you like it, so go for it...! Think about the time you've enjoyed it, make it as a motivation to continue your effort... hehe...

Hidupku dulu bener2 mudah.. Selalu aja ada orang yang membantuku, my family, my friends, anyone...Yang akhirnya bener2 mmbuatku "manja" dan slalu "depended on others"..
Waktu ak memutuskan pindah ke Tangerang dah kuliah di sni, ntah knp rasanya smua masalah datang gak berhenti2... and i'm alone here... aku harus nghadapin smua sndiri.. Smua perubahan yang terjadi bener2 mempengaruhi segalanya.. Aku jadi lebih gampang nyerah, lebih gampang nangis.. Tiap kali ada masalah, aku langsung down. Bukannya coba cari jalan kluar, malah nangis dulu.... Gak tau deh udah brp kali nangis di sni..
Temen lamaku blg, waktu aku tanya ap kelebihanku, dia jawab : "gak gampang nyerah".... Kata-katanya bener2 membuatku mikir lagi semua yang telah ak alami dulu.. Dulu juga banyak masalah koq, tapi bedanya dulu ak gak gampang "dijatuhkan" sama yang namanya masalah. Secapek apapun itu, aku terus nyoba, gak lsg nyerah dan terima nasib kayak sekarang, walau dengan support dari semuanya...

I have to change right now! gak boleh selalu nangis dan mikir untuk give up.. Semuanya gak akan terselesaikan hanya dengan nangis dan nunggu bantuan aja.... Sendirian bukan berarti gak isa, aku harus nyoba lebih mandiri. Harus lebih berusaha in anything i do! Hidup itu gak semudah di cerita dongeng, gak semua jalan langsung tersedia gtu aja...Ada kalanya kita harus nglewati semak belukar dulu buat nemuin jalan yang bener....
Semangat!!! ^^

A week of examinations have already done.... Now the only thing I can do is pray, pray for the result...

woahhh... i spend all day long looking for a new template....!!! but i haven't gotten the one i like yet.....
uhhh..... wish i can make one by myself..... *-* ... unfortunately, i know nothing about the web design etc....
So, now, i gotta use this template. don't you think it looks nice? : )

This is my first blog and my first post!!! The beginning of blogging world.... ^^




I haven't found the template i like >.< ... wanna design it by myself, but dunno how to do it... haha... maybe i gotta get a new one from the internet..